Teth
65 Do good to your servant
according to your word, O LORD.
66 Teach me knowledge and good judgment,
for I believe in your commands.
67 Before I was afflicted I went astray,
but now I obey your word.
68 You are good, and what you do is good;
teach me your decrees.
69 Though the arrogant have smeared me with lies,
I keep your precepts with all my heart.
70 Their hearts are callous and unfeeling,
but I delight in your law.
71 It was good for me to be afflicted
so that I might learn your decrees.
72 The law from your mouth is more precious to me
than thousands of pieces of silver and gold.
Sometimes I feel alone. Sometimes I feel like no one is on my side. Sometimes I feel like an outcast. And if I was REALLY honest, I would say most of the time, rather than sometimes. And when those moments come, I beg my Sweet Jesus to be good to His servant, according to His word.
Which means, I often shout at the top of my lungs… Jesus PLEASE, never leave me or forsake me. Never give me more than I can handle and NEVER turn away from me.
And just shortly after the tears fall, I am reminded of how good HE is. Sometimes it feels like there are traps yet out before me, by people who just want to see me fail. Sometimes I feel like I am not smart enough to even read His word, let alone teach it to me son, let alone WRITE a book. For goodness sakes, I am the world’s WORST speller!
And then I am reminded that through the struggle comes strength. Through the pain comes healing and through the loneliness comes comfort. Through the silence comes His Word. And the very words I hear are more precious to me than a winning lottery ticket. After all, He gave up His life for me, a mere lottery ticket is the least I could do… right?
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